Lyrics from a song to remember vividly
Generally, I am a music person. I have not written much about that passion in my blog yet. However, I hope to start fixing it slowly. I admit the only reason behind the lack of music posts here is my perfectionism. Instead of getting some nice thoughts off my mind, I ended up hoarding them as they were evaluated as incomplete. I could talk about that personal challenge over and over again. But It is clear to me what the solution should look like — taking action.
When I was a kid, there was no such thing as Spotify and YouTube. I mean they already existed around that time. So I am sure some kids got introduced to these platforms quite early. How about me though? Well, I got my first old laptop at the age of 7-8 and my phone at the age of 10. Like most boys, who I knew, I also started using these devices to play games. Ahh, what a time it was...
Thanks to games I enjoyed around time I eventually started discovering music. Good examples would be Need For Speed Most Wanted and FlatOut 2. Sure, I enjoyed driving cars in a virtual world but, looking back, a huge part of my deep immersion to the world was music. So, I had a laptop where I played such games. However, there was no internet connection. Yes, it might sound strange now but I don't remember such a thing as wifi back in the day. People who did have the internet, those relied only on ethernet cables. As a result, there was no way I could download and play my liked tracks many times.
There is another weird fact about that time — not so many people had a lot of channels to choose from on their TV. At home we had only around 10-12, mostly with news and mainstream Ukrainian shows. But my neighbor friend had some extra, one of which was dedicated to music — MusicBox. There were very few ads while music played 24/7. It featured new releases as well as classics. That's the place where I heard this post's song for the first time.
The nights by Avicii has taken a special place in my heart all these years. It is like a time capsule from the early 2010s. It was a kid's life without obligations and problems. Do I miss that time? Yes, I do. But I am not here to cry that the time is gone. In fact, I want to use this opportunity to say that I am extremely grateful that my childhood was the way it was. Seeing how kids grow up nowadays, having a childhood where I spent all my time outside with friends without any phones sounds like a privilege.
Here are the lyrics, or rather the words from the beginning of a music video I saw on MusicBox:
When I was 16, my father said, "you can do anything you want with your life. You just have to be willing to work hard to get it."
For some reason, it starts hitting differently while I am getting older. In the current state of the world, it often looks like there's no bright future. Every next year has fewer happy moments than the previous one. It is uncomfortable to realize how many young individuals like myself deal with constant doubts and pressure. Unfortunately, it is so easy to forget that each of us actually has potential. Going through school and then university, these environments try to make us all "equal" so that we can fit in later in life. I believe a lot of creativity is suppressed and neglected by the public education system. At some point, we start making choices that are not even ours. We are just led by others, who "seemingly" know more.
We are living in the era of results. If you have not achieved certain things, who are you to be considered a worthy person? Just go to 9/5, pay taxes, vote for who is promoted by the media the most, and nothing else is needed from you. Ahh, it does hurt me that so many people accept it as their reality in the end. It is even worse that I am not doing any better right now. I go to university where I see zero sense for me. I deal with "important responsibilities" that have to do with me not as much. That being said, deep down I have faith in myself. I can see that as long as I work hard and believe in something, I can make out of my life anything I ever dream of.
To be honest, I am yet to find that something I believe in and want to work my ass off for. But it is worth seeking my own truth, especially in a world where so many lies are considered truths.